Failures are part of life - everyone says. I know they are essential part but still why can't I just accept them. Why do they leave me in a down state. I failed today - I knew that chances were great for failing but still I am so down, so shattered, missing family, wanting to just go home, hide myself and then cry and cry and cry till it dries. But I know this will be really hard for me to shed some tears - why am I so shy to cry?? Why can't I just cry like a child...oh I hate being adult....wish I could become a child, just for few moments and could cry loudly, not thinking of public and just cry the world out.,...oh wish I could be a child.
I need to speak, shout, scream to let it all out.